Monday, July 27, 2015

Adulting

I've always been the good girl, the well behaved -its-the-right-thing-to-do girl.

And somewhere along the lines, I got tired of it. I have lived my life out of fear.
Fear that I wouldn't be enough, that I'd be too much, that I wouldn't crack it.

My fear has taken many forms, people pleaseing, the mediator, the fence sitter and ofcourse the constant need for external validation.

Now I sit here and I have taken my first "no take backs" adult steps.  And the world didn't crumble.
While I am still fighting the internal fight with my old self. I have to constantly remind myself to be brave and bold because I am looking for a different outcome.

So go on, be brave and do something that scares the shit out of you