Simply Aasia

I have struggled over the last few months, to find something positive to write to about. I have been uninspired and couldn't be arsed about anything. I wanted to write but genuinely didn't want to put any more negative thoughts into the world and really well I needed a boost of some sort, Anyone who knew me as a kid, knew I couldn't stand still. I needed to move and dance and I genuinely communicated through interpretive dance. It drove my mom crazy I don't know if I lost that creative spark, or if by becoming more serious, but those random bursts of movement became less and less over the last 15 years (sad hey?) I then saw this article on a friends FB wall and I thought, maybe if I started dancing again, I would have the energy to return to gym and refocus my health efforts. It did so much more. From the time I stepped back into the Salsa class (which while it was recommended I buy dancing shoes, I was like err yeah lets see how the first month goes) ha! a...

I feel pretty 10kgs in 3 months October 2013 January 2014

I nearly crapped myself yesterday, while the year has just started. I freaked out about what I would have to do this year. and was so overwhelmed by the decisions and big things I would have to do I cried while walking and i cried while swimming and I cried while doing downward dog, I was too afraid to leave the gym out of a fear that I would just cry if another human approached me... it was a weird 3 hours at the gym Success is the ability to move from one failure to the next with enthusiasm. - Winston Churchhill I want so much more from this year, as the last 2 years is littered with more failures than great stories, and I just realised if I wanted life to give me a break, I'm going to have to punch it in the nuts and make it give me the break. I I have to make my own breaks and I am going to have to work fucking hard to get to where I want to be. So while i spend the next year getting an identity for myself, and an opinion of my own. I want to remember and pra...

Standing here on the edge of the road Looking for nothing more than a moment with you finding love and having it, is apparently not the same thing I found it and look at it with great care and devotion but love hasn't found me, I sit and dream about what it will be like when you finally see me and realise who I am to you but I am too old for fantasy and games so I try to carry on with a like filled fully with random activities and outings and say see, I am carrying on in SPITE of you but in truth I wait and probably will Forever

I don't understand it or not even sure where to begin but since my birthday 3 weeks ago I have craved grapes. Fresh off the bunch, in a glass, from a can. I don't care as long as I get grapes into my system. I dont even know if it's healthy or unhealthy. I have managed to contain this unnatural tendencies to woolies 100% hanepoort and grapetiser and ACTUAL grapes. What the hell is wrong with me? All I think about is grapes. THEN I googled grape cravings and I almost(ALMOST!) feel the exact same: http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20090115164940AAtpUNs http://www.30bananasaday.com/forum/topics/extreme-grape-cravings?xg_source=activity http://thecultureoflove.blogspot.com/2007/01/grape-bender.html Suffice to say I am NOT normal, but I am not alone