Simply Aasia

So while I have been on a downer of note these last few months. Dreamlife asked me to complete the questionnaire below 1. Why did you start your blog and does it fulfill that purpose. I wanted to have a voice online, specifically because finding someone I could relate to was so hard. In hopes that someone else stuck between things would find something they could relate to. I don't know if it fulfills that purposed anymore, and more just a soap box that I can let things out. 2. Whats your favourite post of all time. (your own work please) http://aasiaf.blogspot.co.za/2012/06/lifes-work-and-ambition.html a reminder of who I wanted to be. 3. If you could meet 3 people living or dead who would they be. - My great great great great grandfather on my dads side, An Afghani pathan who found himself in SA and kidnap a norwegian woman and made her his wife. - I need the full story - Then my  great grandfather mom side, who was an off the boat indian from Surat who took ...

No matter how much I overcome, or how much I endure There always seems to be more venom than there is a cure I can't keep at it, this continuous struggle that's not real, but my reality No matter how many of my demons I slay, I have to fight and fight new foes, new days. Ya Allah, why is the first thing that leaves me, is my faith? Why is that the hard part. People who usually talk about Tawakkul, don't know anything about the trouble and struggle of what it is. What world is it, that we will live in, that allows people to play with others fate Who don't have the emotional maturity to look for context. To hate me because Im a misfit.(misfit is the excuse) Maybe because Im not thin. or don't belong to the same clubs Or maybe you just don't like a large brown woman telling you what to do. Maybe you're the douche bag, but now it's me who must fight, I don't WANT to, but I will HAVE to

I'm actually so hesitant to post this because I know some people will want more than I am prepared to give, say or do. But I can't be silent not so much about whats happened, but what I discovered about myself in the process. The thing that happened: I usually offer my services in digital marketing for free for fundraisers and people who do community work. So when a local religious (sheigh) leader asked to meet me to discuss a project. I thought nothing of it. I've met with plenty of them to know how to conduct myself. Side Note : as someone who has recently embraced Hijab, I understand there is additional scrutiny on how I conduct myself in muslim restaurants, especially with local scholars/leaders Flag 1 : said sheigh pitched up in casual clothes and I could smell the cologne on him and could see he had recently shaved and groomed. This made me nervous because the first thing he remarked on was how pretty I was. Flag 2 : he kept asking me, how long I was prep...