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Janu-worry

I am always wanting to write long and meaningful posts like some of the blogs I follow. But i dont seem to have the ability to story tell quite like they do, skilled writers who can spin yarns and make magic out of typed words and sing songy sentences that leave you in an imagintive snare But i dont have that and its cool There is a lot I am good at, and this isnt one of those times. Everyone keeps asking me what I have been upto, and Im not sure really if its worth repeating, but i hate inane convos but i hate evasive answers even more so So I get stuck between wanting to be honest and not wanting to bore everyone into oblivion Gym -  I gym almost 7 days a week or walk the Promenade, Newlands Forrest and once to tokai forrest and maybe attempt the pipe track again soon, unless there is an actual plan being made but yeah. Trying to get strong because I have committed to competing in the Impi in October 2014. So I dont want to kak, die or injure myself badly. Also being di

living on my own

I have adapted like a duck to water, the fit is just right and the silence is golden. Its like living in a Buddhist temple, where as soon as I get home and slip off my work day and clothes. I get to keep quiet and ruminate while I am afraid of my own company sometimes, its awesome to have my space, clearly demarcated by the landlord, that for the next year, this is Aasia-land. I have had many many adventures, while exercising, and socialising and more recently spiritualising. I am happy. and while I have no pics to corrobrate, I am happy in my sort of empty space. The possibilities are endless

First time in forever

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I feel pretty 10kgs in 3 months October 2013 January 2014

in my mind

I nearly crapped myself yesterday, while the year has just started. I freaked out about what I would have to do this year. and was so overwhelmed by the decisions and big things I would have to do I cried while walking and i cried while swimming and I cried while doing downward dog, I was too afraid to leave the gym out of a fear that I would just cry if another human approached me... it was a weird 3 hours at the gym Success is the ability to move from one failure to the next with enthusiasm. - Winston Churchhill I want so much more from this year, as the last 2 years is littered with more failures than great stories, and I just realised if I wanted life to give me a break, I'm going to have to punch it in the nuts and make it give me the break. I I have to make my own breaks and I am going to have to work fucking hard to get to where I want to be. So while i spend the next year getting an identity for myself, and an opinion of my own. I want to remember and practice some