Friday, March 11, 2016

Walking wounded

Takes a breathe
lets go
of the safe harbour
spiralling into the depths

Heart is strong but afraid
Head keeps looking  back
but can't turn around

this,is.it

Monday, August 31, 2015

well, do you?

Do you know you're drowning?
Can you even tell,
 or
like a slow boiled crustacean who is none the wiser to its
surroundings

Will you slowly be killed, suffocated
and not even realise

you could have just moved.

Monday, July 27, 2015

Adulting

I've always been the good girl, the well behaved -its-the-right-thing-to-do girl.

And somewhere along the lines, I got tired of it. I have lived my life out of fear.
Fear that I wouldn't be enough, that I'd be too much, that I wouldn't crack it.

My fear has taken many forms, people pleaseing, the mediator, the fence sitter and ofcourse the constant need for external validation.

Now I sit here and I have taken my first "no take backs" adult steps.  And the world didn't crumble.
While I am still fighting the internal fight with my old self. I have to constantly remind myself to be brave and bold because I am looking for a different outcome.

So go on, be brave and do something that scares the shit out of you